Wednesday, April 29, 2015

10 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts.

TEN WEEKS today! We are in the double-digits and about a quarter of the day through this pregnancy adventure. Wow.

Your limbs are bending. Your fingers and toes are separating. You are starting to wiggle and move in there and I couldn't be more delighted.

But unfortunately, this heat in Arizona has been a doozy. Memaw and I were working outside in great grandpa's yard and all of a sudden, I got really lightheaded and had to dash inside. I got sick and then felt bad for not being able to help anymore.

Rest. Fluids. Repeat. That's my mantra.

Love,
Mama

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

9 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

Last night, Memaw and I flew down to Arizona. We are spending a few days with your great grandpa John, great aunt Sandra, and great uncle Ken. It was a long flight, but the weather down here is sunny and warm.

No one down here knew that you are coming, so when I told them, they were so excited! I'm the only granddaughter / niece on this side of the family, so it's a big deal to everyone...

... And especially to me and your daddy.

Love you.
Mama

Monday, April 27, 2015

9 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

It has been five weeks since we first found out about you, since that first positive pregnancy test at home in our bathroom before I hopped in the shower and praised God. Five weeks since I told your daddy. Five weeks since we started planning how to tell everyone else. Five weeks, little one, that we've known you were joining our family in November.

Five weeks since we saw again how God is able to do abundantly more than all we could ask or imagine.

9 weeks down, about 30 to go!

Love you forever,
Mama

Saturday, April 25, 2015

9 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

It was a week of loss. In addition to great grandma Charlotte passing, a sweet lady from our church - Ms. Vadace - passed this week, too. Today was her memorial service. We celebrated her life and the woman of God that she is. We rejoice in knowing she is with Him today.

After her Celebration of Life, I was pulled aside by a woman who attends Fairview Loop with us. She said, "Every time I see you, I think, 'Baby! Baby! Baby!' Is there something that I need to know or that you aren't telling us?" And I looked at her (I'm sure wide-eyed!) and just zipped my lips and reached out to zip her lips, too. Then it was her turn to look shocked! I whispered in her ear, "I'm due in November. But do not say a word to anyone! Please! We are telling the church on Mother's Day."

I can't believe someone could guess about you like that! Granted, I know I've not quite been myself lately - nauseous, tired, pale, etc.... but to be able to guess like that?! Wow.

In other news, your daddy flew out today to be with his family. Great grandma's service is on Tuesday and I'm sad you and I can't be there, baby, to support your daddy during this time. I was desperately sad and worried that something would happen while he is gone - on flights, on the ground, anywhere - and didn't want him to leave.

But the Lord is reminding me to trust. That He has a plan and it is good. That I don't have to fear for your daddy, for you, for anything because I can trust in Him instead. Praise Him!

Love,
Mama

Friday, April 24, 2015

9 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

You sent me home from work early today, after I got sick in the morning and was unable to pull it together. I lasted half a day of working on my KPIs, checking email, and updating ShareSuccess before I threw in the towel. Praise the Lord, my boss is understanding - his wife just had their second child this spring - and he agreed wholeheartedly to send me home.

I napped for two and a half hours. It was delightful.

And then we got a call that your great grandma Charlotte had suffered a major heart attack and passed. Your daddy was so sad and I was so unsure how to comfort him. Your great grandma was so excited to meet you this winter, but we know that she will be seeing you some day. In the meantime, we will tell you all about her love of music and reading, how she had long curly hair, how she ate like a bird but loved like an elephant.

Life is sometimes messy and scary, little one. But God is always good.

Love,
Mama

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

9 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts,

We are NINE WEEKS! You are now officially a fetus (but you've been a baby to us all along). You are a little miracle, growing away.

Your daddy and I love watching videos together of your development. We lay in bed sometimes, watching video after video. Sometimes I just look at our little photo of you, too, dreaming about the next one we get.

Last night, we went on a date - sushi for your daddy, yakisoba for me. It was our first time out to eat on a date in a while, so we enjoyed chatting and catching up. We went to Value Village afterward, and I finally bought this book. It was quite funny - your daddy and I were walking around, holding the book, when all of a sudden, we saw one of our youth girls from church! I said, "Oh no! The book!" and shoved it behind my back real quick. Your daddy grabbed it, threw it in a basket, and covered it with something else. We were safe!

Last night, looking through the book, I started worrying about whether or not I was feeding you what you need to grow strong and healthy. As I began to cry (oh, pregnancy hormones), your daddy grabbed the book and asked me what I've been eating. It lined up perfectly with what I should be eating, so I think we're doing okay, baby. Phew.

We are planning to tell our church about you on May 10. And we realized last night that it is Mother's Day that day! I just got tickled and kept giggling about it. Normally, during the Children's Message on Mother's Day, the kids take flowers to all the mamas. Maybe I'll just stand up and get a flower that way - I think everyone will be confused at first, but if I hold my little belly, they might catch on. I can't wait to make you known.

Oh, but you are already known by the One who is knitting you together. What a delight.

Hugs and kisses,
Mama

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

8 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

Today we wrap up week 6 of our journey together. It's been... exhausting, to be honest. I love you to pieces, and I know your daddy does too, but I am not sleeping well right now. I wake up several times throughout the night for various reasons and remain fatigued throughout my day.

But you are worth it.

Love,
Mama

Monday, April 20, 2015

8 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

While praying for you today, the Lord reminded me that He already has good things planned in advance for you to do! He has already planned good things for you. He knows the plans He has for you - plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future. Oh, praise Him!

We have big dreams for you, baby... Mainly that you will come to know the Lord as your Savior at an early age and will follow Him throughout your life. But He is able to do abundantly more than all we could ask or imagine.

I love you,
Mama

Friday, April 17, 2015

8 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

I found out today that my sweet college roommate, Emily, is expecting her own little baby, too! And not only that, little one, but she is due the SAME WEEK as I am, just a few days before!

Last night was Ladies Night at Home Depot. Laura, KD, Heather, and I all went. At one point, Laura was showing pictures of Bryant to other people... and I thought briefly of pulling out my phone, finding your little picture, and showing you off, too! I can hardly imagine the surprise if I had. But we're waiting a few more weeks until we make you known like that.

Three more weeks. In the next three weeks, you will:
  • Participate with me in a drumming class
  • Go to your first FLBC Fish Fry (though we won't eat any of the halibut - sad day!)
  • Travel on an airplane
  • Meet your Great Grandpa, Great Aunt, and Great Uncle in Kingman, AZ
  • Go to a work conference in Atlanta, GA
  • Eat Chick-Fil-A
  • And have another ultrasound!
I'm already so excited to see you again and hear your heartbeat. It's been just over a week since we saw you last, but you're now half an inch in length, head to tail. Your arms and legs are getting stronger and this week, you start wiggling around in me!

I can't wait to feel you moving. People have said it is the best feeling... but I bet it's nothing compared to feeling your weight in my arms in November.

I love you, sweet Baby Batts.
Mama

Thursday, April 16, 2015

8 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts,

Just over eight weeks, little one. You've made me so nauseous this week, from dawn 'til dusk, and every moment in between. More than once I've caught a whiff of something and wanted to just be sick! I'm trying to eat every couple hours because that helps and last night, I kept some crackers by the bed. When I woke up throughout the night, I'd eat some. That helped, too.

Luke's wife brought in their two young daughters today. Cora is less than 2 months old, but I got to hold her and feed her a bottle. So sweet. At one point, Katilin turned to me and said, "So you and Allen..." and I thought she was going mention expecting YOU right in front of everyone! But she just said, "... have been married over a year now?" And I said, "Oh, yes!" Phew. In about three and a half weeks, we can tell everyone about you. But until then, you are our secret prayer.

Oh how we love you, little one. We pray for you daily and I know others do, too.

Love,
Mama

Monday, April 13, 2015

7 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

I spent almost all day yesterday (and so far, most of today) feeling quite nauseous. I was nearly SICK yesterday, but praise the Lord, it passed.

Donna said I should expect to gain 1/2 pound per week during the first trimester, then a pound a week after that - between 30 and 35 pounds total. I want to be healthy for you so that you can be healthy too, little one.

Your daddy gave you kisses yesterday, on my tummy where your current home is. We think about you and pray for you all the time... but I want your daddy to know - and I want YOU to know - that your daddy will always be a priority above you. He needs to be. That way you see an example of a godly marriage and can strive to have one, too.

I wanted to buy you all the baby clothes this weekend, but I didn't - we'll get you some, for sure, but not yet. In three and a half weeks, we get to see you again and I can't wait. Then we get to tell our church family, our Bible study groups, our work.

For now, you are still a little secret. Keep growing little one! We'll meet you soon.

Love,
Mama

Thursday, April 9, 2015

7 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts,

Oh, my heart is so happy. I can hardly keep from smiling. I want to burst with joy and anticipation!

Last night we saw you, all .94cm of you. You are the same length as my pinky fingernail is across. Last night, laying in bed, I cried because you are so small... so delicate and so tiny... but already so precious to your daddy and me. Your daddy and I just kept staring at the little screen when we saw you blip up. I could hardly take my eyes off you... but I did turn to see your daddy with a look of pride and love and awe on his face.

We are so enamored.

We heard your little heart beating 150 BPM. It sounded like a horse: thump-thump-thump-thump. Loud and clear. I cried when I heard it, finally knowing that you are alive and well in my tummy. According to a website, you are likely to be a little girl... but we decided not to find out. You're going to surprise us. For nine months, only you and God know. I like that you two have a secret like that. Now that we have seen you and heard you, we were told there was a MUCH smaller change of losing you. Praise the Lord.

On the ultrasound we received, you look like a little white blob... but I know that you are growing in there, developing hands and feet, fingers and toes, little ear buds and a tiny nose. And even though you just look like a bean, you are OUR little bean. Our baby Batts bean.  You measured right at 7 weeks, on the dot. We were just a day off in our counting! I marked your weeks on my calendar at work so that I know where you are... all the way through week 40! You'll be a Thanksgiving baby, and Lord knows we are already so thankful for you.

We showed your first picture to everyone: Memaw and Papa, Pastor Tom and Ms. Linda, Janelle, your aunties and uncles. I wanted to show the lady at our doctor's office, but I was afraid she'd think we were odd. But I did already frame your little picture and we will hang it in our apartment next week, for our college and career Bible study to see soon.

The Lord is using tiny needles to knit you together, and I rejoice that He started with your heart. I love that that is the first organ to really develop and hold its own. Your heart. The thing that pumps you full of blood but also houses your passions and emotions. The seat of who you are. Oh little one, I pray that you love the Lord with all your heart. That you follow and submit to Him daily in your life.

Donna, our midwife, said that everything looks perfect. My body is healthy, ready, and able to care for you. Your body is prepped to grow big and strong - and already is! My bones are able to deliver a normal-sized baby (so please don't grow TOO big and strong!).

And we are already preparing for your arrival! After our appointment, your daddy had time to kill before returning to work. We went to Target and bought a box of diapers for you and a gray maternity dress for me! I wanted to wait to see you before we bought anything like that.

Oh, my little one. Keep growing. Soon you'll be large enough for me to hold, and I can't wait. We love you so.

Love always,
Mama
Your first picture! Can't wait to see you again on May 8th

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

6 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

We had your first appointment last night! Your daddy and I chatted with the nurse for about 30 minutes about basic baby things - what to eat, what to not eat (no annual FLBC Halibut Fish Fry for me this year!), how to exercise, etc. I weighed in, too, at a higher weight than I'd hoped.

I want to be healthy for you, little one, so that you have a better chance of being healthy, too. That means working out, eating right, sleeping lots, and drinking water! I'm going to come up with a workout plan so that you and I can both get the most out of this time and be ready for our labor in just eight months.


Week Day
Pre-Work
AM
PM
Post-Work
Monday
Yoga
Walk 1 mile
Walk ½ mile
Swimming / Arms
Tuesday
Yoga
Walk 1 mile
Walk ½ mile
Pregnancy Circuit
Wednesday
Yoga
Walk 1 mile
Walk ½ mile
Arms
Thursday
Yoga
Walk 1 mile
Walk ½ mile
Pregnancy Circuit
Friday
Yoga
Walk 1 mile
Walk ½ mile
 
Saturday
Yoga
Dance, Arms or Pregnancy Circuit
Sunday
Yoga
Rest

I'm not really into yoga, but I think it would help me wakeup in the morning and stretch. I found an easy flow that I'll be able to follow without the annoying and slow videos on YouTube.

Let's do this, little one!

Love you,
Mama

Monday, April 6, 2015

6 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

Today is our first prenatal appointment! I get to leave work at 2:45pm to get to my appointment where they will do some blood work and start some tests. Then we go back on Wednesday to chat with our midwife.

Oh, baby, we are so excited. I know it's probably too soon to see you this week... but I am hoping and praying that we will at least get to hear a heartbeat! I want to hear that tell-tale "thump - thump - thump" and know that you are alive and well.

I can't believe it has already been two weeks since we found out about you. You have grown so much the last two weeks and this week, your little hands and feet are developing more and more. Hopefully the vitamins I've been taking, the food I've been eating, and the exercises I've been doing have helped you grow and grow!

Soon we're hoping to announce you to the world... but right now, the only people who know about you are:
- me and your daddy
- Memaw and Papa
- Grandma and Grandpa Batts
- Pastor Tom and Ms. Linda
- Joe and Janelle
- Great Grandma and Great Grandpa Krauss

We're letting our little secret out bit by bit... but you don't worry about that. You keep doing your thing, little one, being knit together by the One Great God.

We love you,
Mama

Friday, April 3, 2015

6 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

On Wednesday night, I told Janelle that I'm expecting - she is visiting from Michigan with her three oldest girls. That was really special because she was a Mentor Mama in our wedding, my youth leader in high school, and a dear friend who has seven children of her own! She prayed for me, your daddy, and you as we sat there in Pastor Tom's office. I felt so blessed... and I feel so blessed even now to have such wonderful women in my life. And to know they will be in YOUR life, too!

Thursday night, I went swimming with Ms. Linda, Janelle, and her girls. The Alaska Club employee asked Janelle, "Who is with you?" and Janelle listed her three daughters. Then she asked me who was with me. I said, "No one..." then I looked at Ms. Linda and Janelle and we said, "Well..." It was funny, little one. You are with me always.

Your daddy is hard at work today, organizing our storage room at the apartment, sorting through our winter stuff and camping stuff. He is dedicated to preparing for you, baby! You'll be here in about 34 weeks... less than 8 months!

In less than one week, though, we'll have talked with the doctor about you and (hopefully) heard or seen you. Can't. Wait.

Love you to the moon,
Mama

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

6 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts,

My back was hurting yesterday so last night, your sweet daddy rubbed it for me. I felt so loved and relaxed. As soon as he was done, I fell fast asleep and hardly woke until my alarm went off this morning.

I haven't been drinking much coffee lately. Maybe that's why I've been tired? I don't want to do anything that will hinder or hurt your growth. I did, however, buy some decaf coffee at the store so that I could make a cup when we have our college students over on Friday. It won't keep me awake but it will taste yummy.

Memaw and Papa mentioned maybe buying your crib and your daddy and I have talked briefly about you sleeping in a bassinet in our bedroom for a little while, too. We have a little space all picked out for you already. I can't wait to see your little face there soon.

Keep on growing, small one. We're so excited for our doctor's appointments next week... hopefully we can see you or at least hear you.

Love,
Mama