Happy Birthday, Clara Mae!

Dear Clara Mae,

Exactly one week after your due date, at 41 weeks, you were born into this world. We are so pleased you are here.

I started feeling contractions with you at about midnight on July 17, 2017. They were not very consistent until about 3:00am, when I could start timing them. Just like with your older sister, your daddy and I prayed and read scripture through each contraction. But this time was different - I was so tired, felt so unprepared, that Satan kept attacking me and making me doubt not just myself, but the Lord. I struggled all day, to be honest.

Throughout the morning, the contractions got stronger and closer together... until I took a nap. Then they tapered off. So daddy and I hopped in the car and went to get him a coffee. Nothing else to do!

On the way, I felt a contraction and, with nothing to do to get my mind off it, I just felt it. I felt what my body was doing to move you down the birth canal, how it was compressing against itself and you to shift you just a fraction more, just a little bit closer to being here. I started to breathe deeply, thinking the whole time, "Just breathe her down..." That mantra became a large part of the rest of my contractions!

After the coffee run, contractions picked back up again and we were getting so hopeful that you'd be here by mid-morning or mid-afternoon... until I took another nap - I'm telling you, Clara, I was so exhausted. Unfortunately, the nap caused the contractions to taper off AGAIN!

After the nap, I was feeling pretty discouraged. We had already endured about 16 hours of mostly back labor, and still, no baby. I decided to set my mind on the fact that you just weren't going to come today, that the contractions would end altogether.

We finally decided that at 6:00pm, we would just go to the hospital to see if I had made ANY progress at all... but between 5:00pm and 5:30pm, the contractions got so strong and were about 3-5 minutes apart. So we gathered our stuff, kissed Ruthie and Mimi goodbye, and headed out shortly after 5:30pm

Contractions slowed some on the way to the hospital, but we were ushered into triage where they determined me to be about 4.5 cm dilated and 70% effaced. They called Dr. Moss who said to admit me, and we made our way to room 105.

We had two nurses that night: Jan and Charly. And guess what - they were both believers! We got there right at shift change, so Jan took got us settled while we waited for Charly to get there. When Jan walked in the room, I had some Bible verses written on index cards laid out on the bed in front of me. Jan asked, "Are you studying?!" I said, "No... well, sort of!" She saw what I was reading and got so excited. She told us, "That's my world, too!" and went on to explain that her husband is a pastor and Charly's husband is on the worship team at the same church. Then Jan prayed with us - it was so special to know that she (and Charly!) were both believers and would be partnering with us in prayer throughout the labor and delivery.

Within the next couple hours, I progressed to 6 cm and 100% effaced... and was still exhausted, in a lot of pain, and doubting my body's ability to deliver you. Charlie suggested I get in the tub, so they started filling it up. Before I could hop in, Dr. Moss requested that I be hooked up to the monitors for a few minutes. Everything seemed just fine - you were so snug in there! - so after about 30 minutes, I was unhooked and settled in the tub.

The warm water felt so nice, Clara. It helped me relax and gave me and daddy some time to chat and pray through the contractions. Still, through each contraction, we were reading scripture, praying, and I was thinking, "Just breathe her down."

While in the tub, I could feel my body progressing quickly. I had one particularly strong contraction and didn't tell Daddy. Instead, I closed my eyes and repeated over and over in my mind, "You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast for he trusts in You" (Isaiah 26:3) while breathing deeply. The contraction lasted a couple minutes and, during that time, Charly walked in. When I opened my eyes again, she asked me, "Are you sleeping between contractions?" I told her, "That WAS a contraction." And Clara-bou, you should have seen her face. She was SHOCKED that I was that quiet and still during a contraction, with no pain medicine. She said, "I want to be like you when I grow up!"

Within about 20 minutes if being in the tub, I started feeling the urge to push. I told Charly and she said I'd probably have to get out in about 5 minutes, so that I don't deliver to baby in the water! So shortly after that, I crawled out of the tub and made my way back to the hospital bed.

I climbed in the bed and Dr. Moss came in. Charlie got everything set up for your delivery and Jan was there getting things ready for you. A contraction came and we had the following conversation:
Dr. Moss: "Do you want to push?"
Me: "YES!"
Dr. Moss: "So push!"
Me: "I can't!!"
Charly: "Yes, you can. We'll hold your legs if you'd like and I can count to ten."
Me: "Yes please!!"

So that's what they did. Charly and daddy each held a leg, Charly counted to ten, and I started pushing. I pushed three times and could feel your head crowning!! They commented on all your dark hair and Dr. Moss said, "Wow, she's right there. If you push one more time, she'll be here!" Charly asked if I wanted to feel your head and I said no - I was in the zone and didn't want to lose focus! The next contraction came, and you better believe I pushed with all my might!

Five pushes during that contraction and I felt your body slide from mine as you came into this world on July 17, 2017 at 10:49pm.

Immediately I started saying, "Oh, my baby! She's here!" Jan wiped you off real quick and they handed you right up to me. As soon as your umbilical cord stopped pulsing, daddy cut it. And I just kept exclaiming over how you were here and beautiful and your skin was perfectly colored and your hair was so dark and long and you were here!!

23 hours of labor, five minutes of pushing, countless Bible verses and prayer moments... and you were here. Finally on the outside. Safe and secure in my arms and, within minutes, nursing like a champion.

They finally got my placenta out and saw that your umbilical cord was attached to the side of it, rather than in the middle like is normal. No big deal, just made it more difficult for my body to expel. I didn't care. You were here!

After about an hour, they came back to weigh and measure you. At 20.5 inches long and 8 lbs even, you were the perfect size for a week-late baby. They cuddled you up in your blanket and daddy held you while I hopped in the shower.

It felt so nice to clean myself up and that long labor and short delivery! I put on those great granny-panties the hospital provides, along with all the accouterments that go along with post-delivery recovery. I tied on a fresh hospital gown and crawled into bed. Daddy and I spent the next couple hours staring at your perfect face, texting family members, and savoring our first moments with you.

Oh Clara Mae, we love you a million times over already. You are a light - I know the hospital staff saw the difference in our lives as we brought you into the world. And we pray, girly, that you will continue to be a light.

Love love love,
Mama

41 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

41 weeks today and you are cozy as can be. You're moving a little bit less during the day (less room, I suppose!) but still get really wiggly in the evenings. I've had a cold, and didn't want to field everyone's questions, so we stayed home from church yesterday.

I had some small contractions throughout the day, but nothing big... but maybe today will be the day!

Come on, little girl! We are ready!

Love,
Mama

40 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Overwhelmed. Exhausted. Weak. That's how I feel right now.

I've been cramping for over two weeks and finally felt a few contractions last night, but nothing big or consistent. They've now tapered off completely and we're back to square one.

I trust that the Lord has a plan, but Clara, I can't see it and that's so frustrating.

I was reading in 2 Samuel this morning and got to 7:28-29. It says, "O Sovereign Lord, You are God! Your words are trustworthy, and You have promised these good things to Your servant. Now be pleased to bless the house of Your servant, that it may continue forever in Your sight; for You, O Sovereign Lord, have spoken, and with Your blessing the house of Your servant will be blessed forever."

So what words of God's are trustworthy?

• Psalm 139:16 "Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be."
• Isaiah 43:1 "But now, this is what the Lord says - He who created you, O Jacob, He who formed you, O Israel: 'Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are Mine."
• Jeremiah 9:23-24 "This is what the Lord says, 'Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches, but let him who boasts boast about this: that he undertones and knows Me, that I am the Lord who exercises kindness, justice, and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight.'"
• Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'"
• Isaiah 55:8- "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts."
• Mark 5:36 "Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, "Don't be afraid; just believe.'"
• Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you."

Lord, I choose to trust You. In these last days of Clara's pregnancy, I choose to trust in Your words. 

Love,

Mama

40 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

More cramping, plus I lost my mucous plug this morning (TMI?).

Mimi, Ruth, and I went shopping in Anchorage. Mimi bought you lots of cute things for your baby shower (on July 23rd - you better be here before then!!). We ate lunch at Olive Garden, drove home, and relaxed some.

I took a bath this evening and loved feeling you wiggling around in my tummy in the warm water.

But really, little miss, I'd love to feel you wiggling around on the outside even more!

Love,
Mama

40 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Doctor's appointment today. We had an ultrasound to check fluid levels (and got to see your leg bone! ha) which were fine, listened to your heartbeat (a steady 145-150ish), measured you (smaller than usual - are you scrunched down in mommy's tummy?), and discussed ways to get you to come. Dr. Moss stripped half my membranes, so we'll see if that works.

I'm about 50% effaced and 1.5 cm dilated. I guess all that cramping has been doing SOMETHING down there, preparing for you to come.

Sweet girl, we are all so excited to see you...

Dr. Moss is on call on Friday (the 14th) and Saturday (the 15th) so we are hoping you come one of those days so she can deliver you! How does that sound? Good plan? Yeah!

Love,
Mama

40 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

In hopes of getting things moving, we went up to Hatchers Pass today and hiked to Independence Mine. We walked a couple miles, I felt some cramping and backache, but no contractions.

It was foggy up there, and so beautiful. Daddy and I had our first date snowshoeing up there in 2012, then we got engaged there in 2013! We even took wedding photos there in 2014 (not at the mine, but up in the mountains). Hatcher's Pass is a special place to us.

It was fun having Ruth there, running around in her "duckas" (her duck rain boots), Mimi in her hiking boots, and you in my tummy! We saw other families with kids (and babies in carriers) and it made me excited for when you can adventure on the outside with us.

Hopefully we'll see you soon, little girl... until then, stay cozy, I guess!

Love you lots,
Mama

40 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

You are full term! You can (and should) come any time, sweet girl! You're probably about 7 and a half pounds and 20 inches long. I bet you'll be bigger than Ruthie. All systems are "go" for you to make your appearance.

I was thinking the other day about how doctor's don't even know what really causes labor to start. They think there are some molecules you release from your lungs that start it, but I don't think they know all the steps that occur in initiating labor. Why do some women start labor early and some later?

The Lord knows.

I'm trying to trust Him, but I really thought you'd be here earlier than this. I started maternity leave (officially) today, and you aren't here... having a couple days to relax before your big arrival will be nice, but I hope you don't wait inside for too long, Clara. I want to enjoy my days WITH YOU!

Love,
Mama

39 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We went to the Saturday Market in Anchorage today! It was cloudy and chilly, but we had a lot of fun walking around, seeing fun things for sale, and popping into some local crafty stores.

In fact, I bought the yarn to make your Christmas stocking today! I'm hoping to get it done this week, before you come. It's a beautiful deep red and a variegated green that I absolutely LOVE. I can't wait to see how it turns out!

Hopefully tomorrow is our last Sunday with you in my tummy rather than my arms... but we'll see!

Love you to the moon and back,
Mama

39 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I've had cramping ever since last night... especially when I walk or stand up or roll over in bed. My back is hurting some too, mostly on my right side. Hopefully it's a sign things are moving!

Love,
Mama

39 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Well... I guess we made a little progress. I'm still not dilated at all, but my cerivix has thinned a lot and is soft. So that's a step in the right direction, at least. Dr. Moss said she can feel your head, through my cervix, which means you are in position and ready to go... when the time comes. At my appointment next week, we'll make sure there's enough fluid around you still. And then at my 31-week appointment, we'll discuss inducing, if necessary.

However, I've had lots of cramping the last few hours, which is normal after a cervical check. But hopefully it also means I'm dilating.

Daddy and I decided to go on a date tomorrow night, since Mimi is here to watch Ruth. We are so excited! I'm not sure what we'll do, but I'm just glad we get to do it together.

We praise the Lord that He has great plans for your life, Clara. And we can't wait to see how He uses you.

Love,
Mama

39 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Happy Independence Day, Clara-bou! We are so thankful to live in the United States of America, where we experience freedom that others do not... but we are even more thankful for the freedom we have in Christ.

We had planned on going to the Wasilla parade today, but Ruth fell asleep in the car on the way there! So we kept driving north, all the way up to Talkeetna. You liked to jump up and down in my tummy on the way, making me feel like I had to go to the bathroom constantly! We made it without incident, ate lunch, then drove downtown to walk around some.

It was a BEAUTIFUL day! We looked in stores, meandered through town, and just enjoyed all the festivities. We were only there for a couple hours before heading back home, but they were so relaxing.

We made some brats, salad, and baked beans for dinner. And after eating, it was time to put Ruth to bed and just relax...so I took a bath! You and I just relaxed in the warm water and read a book. We soaked for almost two hours! It was so nice.

Tomorrow is your 39 week checkup. I'm hoping we've made some progress since last week, but I guess we'll see.

I love you... see you soon!

Love,
Mama

39 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

39 weeks! You are technically due in one week, but could make your appearance at any time. And we. can't. wait.

This week, your outer layer of skin is shedding and new skin is emerging. This may make it look like you have some dry skin, but it's really just the newness of life showing! Your little lungs are fully mature and ready for some loud screaming after you're born and thrust into our bright, cold world. Oh, I can't wait to hear those cries! You are about the size of a watermelon at 20 inches long and likely 7 or 8 pounds.

I'm trying to get rest (not as much as daddy thinks I should be!) but I could NOT sleep last night. If it happens again tonight, I'm just going to get up and read or sew or crochet. Laying in bed wide awake was no fun!

I have another doctor's appointment on July 5th (if you don't come before then). I ate that whole pineapple this weekend and am now praying that labor starts today so that I can deliver you tomorrow (the 4th). Mimi flies in tonight and daddy and I were talking about how cool it would be if all our kids are born on the fourth day of the month.

But still, not much progress, it seems. So we will keep waiting and praying and anticipating your arrival.

We love you, Clara-bou. See you soon!

Love,
Mama

38 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We officially have a date for your baby shower! Gma Linda wants to throw you one after you are born, while Mimi is still here. So we are planning one for Sunday, July 23rd. Hip Hip Hooray!

Yesterday, we were at Target buying some things and I told daddy, "We haven't gotten Clara hardly anything NEW!" I mean, we have - you have some new clothes to wear - but most of your things will be hand-me-downs from Ruth. I feel bad about that, but I know that as you grow and develop into your own personality, you'll have LOTS of your own things, too.

A nice coworker gave you a sweet linen blanket that says, "I am the Light of the World" from John 8:12. It's sitting in your cradle right now (along with our hospital bag!) so that we can snuggle you up in it when the time comes.

And I made you a ring sling - I'm excited to try it with you! And I did make you a blanket. This week, I also painted your letters purple for your room. I hung them on your wall today, and daddy hung the mirror, so your room is officially as ready as it can be! Mimi and Papa will sleep in there while they are up visiting, but eventually it will be yours. And then it will probably be a playroom for you and Ruth.

Sweet girl, tomorrow you are 39 weeks. Where has the time gone?!

Love,
Mama

38 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

This could be our last weekend with you on the inside! I'm trying to be in the mindset for you to be late, like Ruth was, so that I don't get antsy and frustrated... but we are ready for you to come!

We went grocery shopping this morning and bought a pineapple. My plan is to eat it this weekend and see if it starts to kick off labor! It worked with Ruth... but she was also 9 days late when we tried it! You are technically not late yet.

We spent some time playing outside today and I got to read in the hammock. It was nice... except for when I tried to get up and almost couldn't! I was stuck, like a turtle on its back, unable to get the momentum for my upward swing. I'm glad no one was outside to witness it!

Pastor Tom is coming over tonight to talk about some things with daddy and me. I'm so thankful for godly counsel.

And we are so thankful for YOU! Come soon, little one.

Love,
Mama

38 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Short and sweet appointment today - I'm measuring a little smaller, meaning that you are likely further down in the birth canal. Heartbeat was good. My blood pressure was good. We are just waiting now.

Tonight we went to Thomas and Lesley's house - they are moving into the new house they bought this week! We took them some dinner and just hung out. It was fun.

I'm trying not to commit to many things, because we don't know when you'll be here, but I also don't want to just sit around the house waiting for you. We have lots to do before you come though:

• Paint letters for your room
• Finish cleaning your closet
• Write out new verse cards for labor
• Finish your rug (I hope!!)

We don't know how much time we have until your first day, Clara, so we're just playin the waiting game until then. But as we wait, our love and excitement for you grows and grows!

Love,

Mama

38 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

38 Weeks! Anytime within the next 4 weeks, you will make your appearance. I told daddy today, "This time next month, Clara will be here!" Not only will you be here, you'll be at least one week old! Hooray!

You probably weigh close to seven pounds (or more!) and are likely nearly 20 inches long. At all of my appointments recently you've been measuring right on target (yay!). You have a firm grasp now and will be able to hold onto our fingers when you are born.

I am sleeping better now (mostly because daddy took our box spring off and rebuilt the platform under our bed), but I wake up once or twice each night to go to the bathroom. Sometimes I get leg cramps, which hurt a lot. And heartburn is a constant nightly occurrence, no matter what I do or don't eat. So I'm really just eating what I want, knowing it will come anyway! I'm still walking at work, though my times vary greatly. Today I walked outside (instead of my customary 15 laps inside) and it was a nice change. Last week, my fastest time inside was 17:11 and my slowest was 21:44 - it all depends on how you are nestled inside.

We have a doctor's appointment tomorrow again.

This weekend, we got your room ready! We organized your pictures, moved in the tall shelf / dresser, and stashed your clothes in the closet and drawers. I still want to clean off the top shelf in your closet (and move the diapers up there) and get the floor of your closet organized. But we're so much closer to you being here now! Your bed is already set up in our room, and I may go ahead and put a sleeper and swaddler in it so it's prepped for you.

We can't wait to meet you, Clara. You are our biggest next adventure.

Hugs, kisses, and cuddles,
Mama

37 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Tonight, we went to Gma Linda and Pastor Tom's house for a campfire dinner and croquet! It turned into a beautiful evening (yay!!) so we loved just hanging out in the sunshine. You, little miss, made quite the appearance in the form of my large and in-charge baby bump!

I showed Pastor Tom, Thomas, and Lesley the video of you dancing in my tummy from earlier this week (Gma Linda saw it on Thursday). They were amazed. You are quite our little gymnast sometimes - I can't wait to see how that manifests itself on the outside, too.

We are thankful for a relaxing weekend as we prepare for your arrival. Tomorrow, I think we're going to work on getting your room organized. Yay!

Love,
Mama

37 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

At my 37 week appointment today, we found out that my body has made no progress toward delivering you. I'm still closed up. But that's okay (I guess) - you can stay cozy as long as you want (well, within reason).

Your heartbeat sounded good, my GBS test came back negative, and all seems well in our little pregnant world.

Since Papa is in town, we left Ruth with him while Daddy and I went to our appointment. Afterward, we stopped and got some ice cream (shh, don't tell!) and said hi to Gma Linda at her work. We chatted for a few minutes, which was nice.

Papa flies back home to Oregon tonight, so we are taking him to dinner and the airport soon. Then, in just a few more weeks, he'll be back up to see you, little one! We. Can't. Wait.

Love love love,
Mama

37 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Sweet girl, my co-workers just threw me the sweetest little surprise baby shower for you! They all brought in desserts and decorated everything pink while I was in a fake meeting. I was so surprised! They gifted us a Babies-R-Us giftcard so that we can get you some new treasures, even.

This week has been emotional (to say the least), so I'm feeling very loved and known.

God is good.

Love,
Mama

37 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Daddy put your cradle together today, put the sheets on it, and brought up your clothes form the crawlspace! We are officially THISMUCHCLOSER to getting ready for you to be here.

Tonight, lying in bed, apart from the terrible heartburn that I had, you were soooo wiggly! I can tell you are pretty low and fixing to get ready to come... but you just kept pushing and kicking and wiggling. I took a video and sent it to Mimi to see.

You keep wiggling, little girl. In the meantime, I'll try to keep relaxing and walking.

Love,
Mama

37 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

37 Weeks! Eek! You can come any time now... and we would welcome you with open arms! At 37 weeks, you can smile and keep working out those little facial muscles to be ready for every yawn, cry, and grin. Your fingernails are probably extended past the end of your little fingers and you likely have some hair on your little head.

I felt pretty nauseous the last couple of days (which daddy said happened with Ruth, too, but I don't remember). But ooh! I had a prenatal massage today (a birthday present from Gma Linda) and it was so nice! For 60 minutes, I just laid with cozy pillows, in a dark-lit room that smelled lovely, and felt my muscles relax. I didn't have to think or worry about work, or drama, or stress, or anything. Happy.

I also got off work early and met Kristina for chai today; we had fun just chatting and catching up on life. That was nice.

Well, little girl... at 37 weeks, you are welcome to come anytime you're ready. I was reminded that the Lord knows all of your days... and especially the first one! I've been thinking about how before you were formed in my womb, the Lord knew you. I don't know how - how can He know someone who does not yet exist?! - but He did. I praise Him for that, for your little life that is growing inside of me.

XOXO,
Mama

36 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today was Kelleen's baby shower at church! Ms. Lesley and I have been planning it for weeks and it was fun to see our ideas come to fruition. It was a "Showered with Love" theme, so we decorated with an umbrella, rain boots, rain drops, sunshines.... it was so cute!

My favorite part was the time of prayer we had - everyone gathered around Kelleen and we just laid hands on her and prayed. I prayed for her delivery, especially. That is a hard thing, Clara, and we mamas have to rely on the Lord's strength to get through it. Nothing else will do as well.

This morning, before the shower, daddy and Ruth and I went out to breakfast. We just swung into McDonalds and had a quick bite before grocery shopping, but it was so nice to just get out and have a little meal together. It was relaxing. As we walked Ruth out to the car, a nice gentleman said these are the best days - young kids, young family. And baby girl, I think he's right: you on my inside, safe and cozy, and Ruth on the outside, wild and free. But the days when you are on the outside will be even better.

I love you to the moon. I pray you are continuing to grow strong and healthy, that you are continuing to develop as you should, and that in the Lord's timing, I will have strength to deliver you well.

Love love love,
Mama

36 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We had a doctors appointment today with our new physician! It was nice - we liked her. She did not check to see if I was dilated, but I think I'll ask her to check at my next appointment. I think I've felt some little contractions lately, so we may be on our way... but we'll see.

You measured right at 36 weeks and your heartrate was right where it should be. Praise the Lord!

After your appointment, we headed into Anchorage because... Papa flew up! He has to work on some things at the house, so he is spending some time with us as he works on the house. I told him, "Maybe you needed to come up because Clara will be born while you're here!" He said Mimi would be really sad if that happened... I don't think you'll come this early, which is probably good.

Clara-bou, we love you to the moon. See you soon!

Love,
Mama

36 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

36 weeks! You, my big girl, weigh about 6 lbs and are over 18 inches long (you're about the size of a head of Romaine Lettuce!). Most of the hair and vernix caseosa covering your skin is shedding now and you're preparing to pass your first stool. I feel you moving SO MUCH these days.... Last night, daddy was trying to hear your heartbeat with his stethoscope and you would have NONE of it - you kept shifting and wiggling out of the way!

I've had more heartburn and I can feel you moving lower in my hips and abdomen. My tail bone and back have been hurting more and I'm sure it's because of your growth and position. It's been hard to get comfortable at night; you like to push and push and push on my side!

Little one, I know so many people are excited to meet you... Gma Linda is planning a baby shower for after you come so that we can celebrate your new life together.

Clara, you keep growing strong and healthy and, when the time comes, we'll be ready to greet you with wide open arms and hearts.

Love,
Mama

35 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

What a weekend! I feel like a little recap is in order:

Friday, I worked and headed right home afterwards to get ready for College & Career. We had 7 people over and continued our study of knowing God's will. Tonight, we talked about how it is God's will for us to see him, believe, and be saved! We also talked about how observing Communion is a way for us to reflect on Christ's "bread body" and "wine blood" that He gave us. We took Communion altogether before eating some cookies and chatting until about 11:30pm!

Saturday, we woke up and I got ready right away: I had a bridal brunch to go to!! Ms. Lesley and I were throwing a little party for Caitlin and I had to get out to the church to start decorating. Auntie Juliet met me there and we got started right away. The party officially began at 10:00am, and we had the best time "Sprinkling Caitlin with Love." We played games, ate good food, had a short devotion and time of prayer, and just enjoyed being with everyone!

After the shower, I stopped to get daddy a coffee and went home. We hung out in the afternoon, not really doing much, then got ready for a missions team meeting in the evening. Shannon, Jesse, Auntie Betty, and Uncle Fred came over for the meeting and to discuss our trip to Ghana in December. We can't wait to go and serve with the Gelatts! We brainstormed (and scheduled) some fundraising ideas and ate yummy double chocolate cookies daddy made!

Sunday morning, Ruth woke up early... so I got up with her and rested on the couch some more while she played. Then, after daddy got up, we ate breakfast. We had lots of time, so I sewed Ruth a doggy-print skirt to wear to church that day. Ruth took a nap, so I was able to finish it real quick. We woke her up, got ready, and scooted off to church. Daddy and I ended up working in the nursery during the service, so we colored with the kids, raced cars, ate snacks, and blew bubbles!

After church, Auntie Betty and Uncle Fred came over for lunch then we all took a LONG nap - it was needed! Daddy went out to the Church Council meeting, Ruth and I played outside, and we all ate dinner together. After putting Ruth to bed, I did some laundry and cleaned the kitchen, then read, and we crashed as well!

It was a busy, full, encouraging weekend... and in just about 4 more of them, you'll be here with us!

We love you, Clara Boo.

XOXO,
Mama

35 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

My sweet coworker, Charity, looked at me today and said, "I think she dropped!" Perhaps you have, little girly! As I was walking my laps at work, I felt some cramping in my back and lower abdomen. I guess my body is getting ready to bring you out of the womb and into the world.

Daddy had an interview today as an EMT I with the Borough. We are praying for God's will to be done and holding it all with open hands. While he was at his interview...

Ruthie and I went to see Gma Linda! We spent time chatting, looking at pictures of doggies and moose (Ruth's current favorites) and talking about you! I can't wait for you to meet Gma Linda and give her sweet snuggles, Clara. You will love her.

Mimi bought her tickets to fly back up for your birth! She'll be here July 3rd - a week before your "official" due date. Of course, you can come whenever you are ready, little girl...

We also got some exciting mail today: our information packet from the CCAI! Daddy and I are praying about adoption. Ruth saw the Chinese baby's photo on the cover and said, "Baby!" before giving him kisses. Just wait until she gives you countless kisses, Clara!!

Daddy and I spent some time laying in bed last night playing games with you: daddy would poke your foot, you would move it around, and he'd poke it again. You kept pushing as hard as you could (or at least, that's how it felt!) in my tummy, trying to get back to him! We were laughing and just enjoying playing with you. Daddy spent some time talking to you, too, which was sweet. He sure loves you, Clara. He loves all his girls (including me!).

We love you to the moon!

Love,
Mama

35 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We are less than 5 weeks out from your due date... and to be honest, I feel very unprepared!

We took a birthing class with Ruth, read lots of books and articles, and generally fixed our minds on birth. But with you, we haven't done that!

Oh, we've been praying, Clara - praying every day for a quick and smooth labor and delivery, for it to be done naturally, for there to be no need for interventions. We've been praying for God to be glorified in it, for my body to endure.

But sometimes Satan likes to whisper nasty messages about how this time will be worse. How I can't do it. How it'll be too hard and I'll be too tired or too sick.

And I have to remind myself that he's wrong. That he is lying. That God is able, even if I am not.

I'm going to add some new scripture cards to my stack for us to read through with each contraction. That helped so much when I was laboring with Ruth and I'm really looking forward to using them again with you. I love that we brought you into this world surrounded in prayer and scripture.

I'm also hoping to use my prenatal massage gift certificate from Gma Linda sometime this month - probably closer to the end of the month so that I am relaxed... hopefully! :)

XOXO,
Mama

35 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I think I'm finally on the up-hill swing from this yucky sickness I had... and just in time for your 35 week update!

You are the size of a pineapple now! Your head is growing quickly as your brain develops. Your little body is growing plumper so that you are comfy going through the birth canal and can stay warm on the outside of my tummy. You are preparing for your first stool passage (which may happen while still in the womb!). Your movements are definitely less erratic now - I feel you turning more gently (probably because you're running out of room) and wiggling around now.

Meanwhile, I have to go to the bathroom all the time. All. The Time. Your head is down in position for delivery, right next to my bladder! Thanks for that, Clara! I'm trying to drink lots of fluids still (Ruth got me a new water cup for work for my birthday!) but the constant getting up to use the restroom is difficult - especially when I have long meetings to attend at work.

Five more weeks, Clara Mae! Keep growing!

Love,
Mama

34 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We have no plans this weekend! We. Are. Thankful!

Because we had no plans, today we:

• Called the Police because of a stopped vehicle blocking an intersection with two passed-out people inside
• Took coffees out to church for the lock-in workers
• Grocery shopped
• Worked in our garden/yard
• Went to Lowes
• Took a short walk
• Relaxed!

Lovely, lovely day. Sunshine outside, cozy house inside, happy.

Tomorrow is a church picnic to kick off the week of VBS at church. We aren't helping with VBS this year, but will go to the picnic anyway. Then we start a new week all over again!

Here's to relaxing summer weekends full of sunshine and happiness.

Love,

Mama

34 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I cried the whole way home from your appointment today.

Donna, who we have been seeing regularly for your whole pregnancy and all of Ruth's, left Generations Medical. We have to start seeing a new doctor... with just 6 weeks left in our prenatal care!! We are completely in the dark as to what happened with Donna. The doctor they rescheduled me with is named Dr. Moss. We looked her up on Facebook and, after some time and prayer, I'm actually really excited to meet her. We believe that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purposes (Romans 8:28). So we believe that this last-minute change in providers is for our good! For some reason, Dr. Moss needs to be the one providing our care for the last month or so. And now, we are praying that we can be a blessing to her during these last appointments. We are praying that when we meet her, we just hit it off and have a great working relationship.

In other news, your appointment went well - your heart rate was around 150 BPM and you seem strong and healthy. Yay!

Baby girl, no matter what happens, we are trusting the Lord and His plans. He is always good.

Love,
Mama

34 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I am SO thankful that I'm home from work today for Memorial Day. I've been so so sick this weekend (my birthday weekend!!). I skipped church yesterday and just slept. And today, all I've wanted to do is rest. I have a prescription that I'm taking, just in case I have some kind of illness/infection and not just allergies. I hope it works!

Today you are 34 weeks! We are just about a month and a half away from meeting you, little girl! You are growing bigger and bigger (and moving more and more!) so the amniotic fluid in my tummy is diminishing to make room for you. You close your eyes while you sleep and have them open when you're awake. Hopefully you'll be doing lots of snoozing when you are born! That coating on your skin will be coming off soon so that when you're born you'll be all sorts of cuddly. You weigh about five pounds now and are about a foot and a half long.

We haven't put together your cradle. We haven't installed your carseat. We haven't brought the newborn clothes up from the crawl space. And yet, our hearts are open wide and we can't wait to meet you.

XOXO,
Mama

33 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today is my birthday! Mimi and Papa left today for Oregon, I cried, Daddy and I got coffee and went for a drive with Ruthie, and we had College and Career Bible study!

We celebrated last night, so our only big thing today was having peach cobbler with our small group. It. Was. Delicious. Your daddy is the best baker ever!

I'm 29 now; almost 30! I don't know where I expected to be at age 29... honestly, I don't know that I ever thought of it. But here's where our family is now, at this age:

• We own a house (well, the bank does... but we're working on it!)
• One baby on the outside and one (you!) on the inside
• A healthy emergency fund
• A good job that more than meets our needs
• A loving local church
• Friends who are like family

In the last year, this is what has happened:

• We bought a house
• We found out you were coming
• We went to Hawaii
• We celebrated our first Christmas with just our little family

In the next year, this is what we anticipate happening:

• You!!
• Praying more about adoption and preparing to move forward with it
• Mission trip to Ghana
• Christmas in Oregon

I hope, Clara, that you dream big for every year of your life. Find your passion and pursue it regularly. Don't be fearful. Be brave in the Lord.

I love you.

Mama

33 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today is my birthday eve! But I took tomorrow off work and (since it's Memorial Day weekend) I have Monday off, too. And we have no plans for Saturday, Sunday, or Monday. None.

*high five*

Love,
Mama

33 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We had a family date night tonight! After a quick stop at JoAnn (where I bought some linen to make a ring sling for you) and dropping off my pre-registration paperwork at the hospital (!!!!), we ate dinner at Noisy Goose and snagged some ice cream from Dairy Queen. We drove the long way home and enjoyed just being together.

I finished a blanket for you tonight! It's purple nubby fabric, with a pretty floral flannel border. I told daddy, "This is the blanket I want to take to the hospital when Clara is born." And he agreed.

It's crazy that we're at the point where we almost need to start packing for the hospital! The duffel bag that we took when Ruth was born was in poor shape, so we threw it away. We'll need to decide on a different bag to take this time.

Next month, we'll install your car seat, pack the hospital bag, I'll write out new verses to use during labor, and we'll be in our final countdown to meeting you!

Less than two months, Clara Boo.

Love,
Mama

33 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

33 weeks! Less than two months! You're drinking my amniotic fluid, gaining weight quickly, and running out of space in my tummy. I can often feel your foot on my right-side still, and your little butt jutting out to the left. You're nearly a foot and a half long and about 4 pounds. Your weight could still double before you are born!

We talked a lot about your development Friday night, which was funny and random. Ms. Lesley is interviewing to work at a midwifery, so I was telling her about my experiences. Then the college and career students started asking about your progress, what your body is like now, whether or not your eyes are open... and I got so excited being able to tell them how you've changed and developed.

I've had bad leg cramps recently, in the middle of the night. I know I need some good rest, but things are so busy lately that it's hard to get it. I really need to just commit to sleep and rest before you get here. I know I can't "store it up" for the days following your birth, but I can at least be more prepared!

Mimi and Papa are still living with us - but I think they want to head out this week. Then we'll sneak into your room, do some redecorating, and try getting things organized for you.

We love you, Clara. Come when you're ready, baby girl. There's a big world ready to meet you!

Love,
Mama

32 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

By mid-afternoon today, your daddy and I needed a break. We hopped in the Jeep with Ruth, grabbed some coffee frappes (and an apple juice box) from Starbucks, and drove north. Ruth fell asleep and we were able to talk, enjoy the beautiful scenery, and just be.

It. Was. Awesome.

All along the way, I felt you kicking and wiggling in my tummy. I was so happy you could be there with us, too, in your own little way.

Family adventures are one of our favorites. We can't wait to have you in your carseat in the back, along for the ride on the outside.

Love,
Mama

32 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

It's Friday! Some of the blogs I like to read always do a "Friday Favorites" post... so I thought I'd join in today! Here are some of my favorites this week:

1. The tile for our wood stove is done! Today, daddy and papa are putting in the grout and we may pick up the stove itself today. Then we can ask Mr. Fred to help get it installed this weekend or early next week. It will (hopefully) be all done by my birthday next week!

Tiling is done!

2. My 32 week bump picture has me feeling large and in charge! It's so hard for me to bend over (in fact, Daddy had to tighten my sandal straps this morning), so I know you are growing bigger every day. Yesterday, I glanced in the mirror and it looked like you had dropped a little bit. I felt you wiggling in my hips, so who knows what you're doing now!

You and mama!

3. Ruth would NOT go to sleep last night, Clara boo! We tried for about an hour before throwing our hands up in the air and letting her run around and play for a little bit. She started walking around the house like this:

Arms crossed, walking around the living room.

It's so fun watching her personality develop, but we are so excited to see yours develop, too! I can't wait to see what makes you laugh, what makes you feel upset, etc. I am so excited to see what you love and what your favorite toys are.

4. The Friday Fling starts today! If it doesn't rain, I'm going to try and meet Mimi, Papa, Daddy, and Ruth at lunch time. Hooray! I love this time of year, when the tourists come out and so do the local vendors. There's always cute baby things there, too :)

5. My doctor's appointment this week was another favorite. Hearing your heartbeat is always a highlight of my week. And now, with the end of this pregnancy approaching, we'll get to hear you more and more often. Hooray!

I hope you had a good week too, Clara Boo, wiggling around in my tummy. I love you to the moon and can't wait to have you on the outside.

All my love,
Mama

32 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Oh, you sweet sweet girl... you have the hiccups right now! I feel a steady little thump in my lower abdomen every other second - and there's nothing I can do to take those pesky hiccups away from you!

Our appointment with Donna went well yesterday - your heartrate was about 152BPM, my blood pressure and weight gain were good, and you measured 32 weeks - right on target!

I told daddy yesterday that I think you'll come in early July, but I don't want to tell everyone that, just in case I'm wrong! Ruth was 10 days late, so who knows what you'll do, Clara!

I had two people today ask me about your name again. Clara Mae. Our light.

I love you, baby girl!

Love,
Mama

32 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

It is a beautiful, sunshine-y day outside today! Daddy came and visited me at work mid-morning with a coffee and we talk a nice walk around the neighborhood real quick, just talking. It was a welcome break for both of us, I think.

This afternoon, we'll get to hear your heartbeat again and (hopefully) everything looks and sounds good still. We have to go grocery shopping afterward and then some family friends are joining us for dinner.

What a day!

It feels nice to have you kicking around inside me today - a reminder that I'm not alone and we're all in this together.

Love you, Clara Boo.
Mama

32 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Thirty-two weeks! I. Am. Thankful.

Your skin is no longer transparent and all but your lungs are fully developed... that means, if you were born this week, you'd likely be just fine! You sleep a lot, but good golly - when you get active, you are ACTIVE! I can see you moving around in my tummy every day, feeling your little feet kick and push on my right side. And I'm pretty sure today I saw your leg move across my stomach as you turned over, trying to get comfy! You probably weigh between 3 and 4 pounds and are about 15 inches long. You are already head-down in my tummy (and will hopefully stay like that!) and I'm sure things are getting a little cramped in there.

While you are continuing to grow and gain weight, daddy and I are busy with our wood stove project! Well, daddy and papa are busy. Today, they pulled up the baseboard trim and floor in the corner and installed the cement board that the tile will go on. I went to the store and purchased the wood stove (they'll hold it until we're ready for it, though). Hopefully, we can have the whole thing done before Meme and Papa leave at the end of the month...

I've had indigestion and acid reflux. I can't bend over easily any more. And last night, I had a terrible time getting comfortable! I'm thankful that now, I can wear sandals to work everyday with dresses. No heels, so I'm just rocking my Tevas and moccasins.

Tomorrow is my 32 week appointment. Then, starting in June, we'll see Donna every week. I can't believe it! Really, you could be here any time, but definitely within the next 10 weeks!

We love you, Clara Boo. Love love love you!

Love,
Mama

31 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today is Mother's Day! I'm so so thankful to be your mama. I'm so thankful to feel you kicking and wiggling inside me, to look at your beautiful face posted on our refrigerator, to dream about holding and cuddling you in about 2 months. I'm thankful to be the one praying for you daily.

Baby, there are so many women who can't be mamas. And there are women who choose not to be mamas by giving their little ones up for adoption. Those women are precious today, too.

And Clara, if one day, God opens doors for me to be a mama to another baby, I pray that I will obediently do that.

I love you. Thanks for making me a mama times two.

XOXO,
Mama

31 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Last night, daddy and I started our wood stove installation project! We took a quick trip to Lowes (and Cold Stone for ice cream for Papa and Memaw and Daddy) then we took the outlets out and started putting blank covers on the holes so that we can cement board over them. Papa helped.

Papa and Memaw had some nervous energy last night - they were waiting for word on whether or not their counter-offer was accepted by the people wanting to buy their house... and it was!! Memaw and Papa have sold their house. Hooray!

I did my own final walk through of it yesterday. So many memories there. But the memories are really with the people, not the space. I was so thankful that the Lord allows us to look back and reflect, but requires that we keep moving forward. I spent angtsy teenage years in that upstairs bedroom... but I also got to put your sister to sleep in that bedroom several times for naps. I spent many mornings getting ready for work in that downstairs bathroom... and got ready there the night daddy and I got engaged and the morning of our wedding. I spent countless summer hours sitting on the back porch reading... and when I broke my leg, I drank coffee out there with daddy.

I pray our house - the house(s) where you grow up - hold sweet memories as you reflect back on them.

I love you more than any house.

Love,
Mama

31 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Daddy and I had a sort of date night tonight - we went to the high school graduation of three students who are (now!!) in our College & Career class. We were even semi-dressed up! So daddy and I clapped and cheered, hugged our graduates, and talked to other friends we saw... and then we got some ice cream before heading home.

The graduation was held in the same place as where I graduated from high school... 11 years ago! I sent some pictures to Aunt Hannah and Aunt Jade and felt so old, remembering when we were sitting there on the floor in our caps and gowns.

Life goes in a blink. High school graduation is a thing to be celebrated... but so is the life that comes after it. Establishing college friendships. Meeting the man you'll marry. Choosing a job and / or career. Buying your first car, first house, first pet. Having your first (and second!) baby.

The Lord is good and faithful through it all.

Love,
Mama

31 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I took my 31 week photo today with Ruth. She is sticking her tummy out in one photo and, as Aunt Hannah said, it looks like we are comparing bellies.

Two Big Bellies!

Right now, you are the perfect little seat for Ruth. But soon she'll get in big trouble if she sits on you!

XOXO,
Mama

31 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Happy 31 weeks, little one! You spend more time sleeping (and dreaming) these days, use all five senses to process information, and can turn your head from side-to-side. You weigh over 3 pound sand are about 16 inches long! At my last appointment, Donna said your head is down in position, where it will stay for the remainder of your time in utero. And the other day, I know I felt the heel of a foot on my right side and your little wiggly butt on my left!

I've been walking every day at work, but today's laps were significantly slower than last week's! I know it's partly because I'm still not feeling well... but it's also because your growth has pushed my other organs (lungs included) into a new place. It's more difficult for me to take deep breaths.

I've also been clumsier lately, going to the bathroom more often (and waking up at night to do so now), and have had some leg/foot cramps lately.

But my FMLA paperwork was approved! Right now, I'm anticipating being home with you from July 8th through September 10th. Yay!! I can't wait to cuddle and snuggle you every day.

I love you, Clara!

Love,
Mama

30 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We stayed home from church today. I've been feeling under the weather and it all came to a head when I woke up. Exhausted. Stuffy nose. Cough. General malaise. So our "Day of Rest" was really a day of rest: we slept, watched movies and Netflix, I crocheted, drank lots of water, and ate copious amounts of cookie dough (without the eggs in it).

Daddy and I spent part of the evening right before bed looking at wood stove ideas. We decided we don't want it up on a platform, we like the legs on it, we like darker tile more than lighter tile (for the most part) and I want something a little bit unique and sassy. I'm excited to start (and finish!) this project before you arrive, Clara.

Here's to a good night's sleep before another full week of work!

Love,
Mama

30 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

When daddy and I first met and started dating, he would drive to Palmer from Anchorage to have lunch with me once a week. He'd pick me up and we would go to the Palmer Downtown Deli. There, we would usually each get a piece of quiche and just sit and chat before I returned to work.

That changed some when he switched jobs and when we had Ruth...

But today, daddy drove to Palmer, picked me up, and we ate lunch (just the two of us!) at the Palmer Downtown Deli. We didn't get quiche this time (sandwiches instead) but were able to just sit and chat together.

It. Was. Wonderful.

Dates with your daddy are one of my favorite things. I love hearing his heart for the Lord, for you girls, for me. I love hearing what's going on in his life and in his mind. And I love sharing those things with him, too.

You are secure in our family, baby girl, because our marriage is secure in the Lord.

Love,
Mama

30 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today was your 30 week appointment! You are measuring at 32 weeks (a little big, but not too bad) and your heart rate is 147 BPM. You sound strong and healthy. Donna said everything seemed just fine. Maybe you'll come early, since you're measuring big. But maybe you'll be 10 days late, like Ruth. We'll wait and see, Clara Boo!

Ruth has started a new habit: if I sit down on the floor, she pulls my shirt up to expose my belly, where you currently reside. Then she hugs it, says "Baby!", and blows you raspberries. My belly ends up covered in her spit, but I love how she loves you already. I think she's starting to understand that "There's a baby in mommy's tummy!" We call you by name - "Baby Clara." And hopefully when you arrive, she'll be excited to see you.

Oh, Clara - I hope and pray that you have a strong and healthy relationship with your sister. I pray the two of you like to stay up late talking and laughing, sharing secrets and sharing clothes. I pray you stand up for each other, and tease each other in love, and give good advice. I pray you serve the Lord together.

Our family is not complete without you, little lady. Can't wait to meet you soon!

Love,
Mama

30 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Just like that, we are three-quarters of the way through the pregnancy! Your little body is more proportionate and your sleeping quarters are getting tighter. Your brain is starting to ripple, making room for future development. And you are sooo wiggly! It seems like your favorite position is one that has you pushing against my right side. You like to prop yourself there (especially when I'm laying down).

Memaw  asked me if we would see you again before you are born... Nope! In anywhere from 6 to 12 weeks, you could be here in my arms. I'm a little nervous, to be honest, about having two babies... but I'm also so excited to welcome you.

I started working on the rug I'm making for your room. I picked out the fabric and have it all ripped into strips. Next I'll sew them together and start braiding. We looked forever for a rug we liked for you, but nothing stood out. So I'm improvising! I made the rug in Ruth's room and I like that I can make yours, too.

Well Clara Boo, we'll see you in about 10 weeks!

Love,
Mama

29 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts,

What a fun weekend! Let's recap:

Friday: Annual Fish Fry at FLBC! Our church always fries up a big batch of halibut to ring in the summer, so we all went to that tonight. In the past, I've been told that I can't have halibut while pregnant (so sad - it's my favorite!). But I recently read where I could! So you better believe I ate some halibut! They had a silent auction to fundraise for summer missions, too, and we bid on a couple things... but didn't win. Memaw and Papa won us a pretty painted gold pan though! We were in bed early.

Saturday: We had a quiet morning, then Ruth and I met Hannah and Addy at Starbucks in Eagle River to chat. We had a fun time together! Saturday night, Daddy and I had a Sunday School party to attend. We had a progressive dinner and scavenger hunt.

Sunday: After church and lunch, we had a low-key afternoon at home. I was grumpy (which is silly) and it took me a little bit to get over that. But when I did, it was good! We went grocery shopping then daddy treated us to a Millers Ice Cream! Daddy and I got vanilla cones, dipped in chocolate, and Ruth ate a kid's vanilla cone, too. It. Was. Delicious. Little Millers always signifies the start of summer (we like going there with Pastor Tom and Ms. Linda). So overall, this was a great "summer" weekend!

Tomorrow you are 30 weeks. Aack! Can't wait to see your face and give you all the kisses.

XOXO,
Mama

29 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We had such a fun evening tonight!

Memaw, Papa, Pastor Tom, and Ms. Linda all came over for dinner and s'mores! It rained a little bit, but not enough to dampen our spirits as we hung out together in fellowship over good food and a warm bonfire.

We told them about how, the other day, I called you "Clara Boo" then laughed because it reminded me of a caribou. Everyone laughed and then, as Pastor Tom was praying with us all before they left, he prayed for you be name... "Clara Boo."

Oh baby girl, we all love you so much. Today at work, you were so wiggly that I could look down and see my tummy moving in reaction to your kicks and squirms. Soon you'll be wiggling on the outside and we can't wait to cuddle you.

We love you, Clara Boo!

Love,
Mama

29 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

29 weeks and our last wake-up in Hawaii. This week, you may be able to smile (awww - that makes me sooo happy!!!). I haven't felt you hiccup, but that's a possibility, too. And within the next 11 weeks, your weight could double or even triple! Hopefully mama's doesn't though! You weigh about 2.5 to 3 lbs and are about 16 inches long.

We finished packing this morning, then walked down for our final Hawaiian coffees. We drank them while walking along the beach and out onto the pier. A homeless man hugged daddy and told him he loved him (funny and awkward - your poor daddy). We made our way back to the apartment and were ready to go... well ahead of schedule!

We decided to load up and take a drive!

So we drove up the shore to the west-side of the island, where we hadn't been before, and found a little town called Nanakuli. We pulled off the road and there, right on the beach, were little tide pools! We saw some crabs, some little fish, and cool pieces of coral. We had a great time exploring.

Then, back to the car, a quick stop for cold drinks at McDonalds, and on to Honolulu again. We decided we could live in a town like Nanakuli: mountains on one side, beach on the other, smaller community, nice weather... and we even talked about what kinds of jobs we could get there!

We filled up the car with gas, dropped it off, and checked in at the airport. Phew. What a fun last-minute adventure we had! Now, time to fly home. We have a layover in Seattle and will get into Anchorage at about 2:00am. I'm already exhausted!

Keep wiggling, little girl. And grow, grow, grow! We'll see you in about 11 weeks. We love you!

Love,
Mama

28 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today is our last full day in Hawaii. Sad! How did time go so quickly?!

We started out with church this morning at Waikiki Baptist, then a nap and lunch at the apartment. Then... beach time! We spent a couple hours playing in the water again, walking in the sand, and just hanging out. It was so nice and low-key and we were able to just relax! We got cookies afterward... yay!

I got a little sunburn on my neck yesterday from the beach and zoo, so I really lathered on the sun screen today. I typically go from white to red, but your daddy tans nicely. It seems like Ruth will tan, too, so it will be fun to see what your skin does!

We had decided a couple days ago to get some sushi for dinner tonight. So daddy found a place online (Hawaii Sushi, right across from South Shore Grill) and we walked over there. We got three or four rolls to share, plus a kid's order for Ruth. She ate a couple pieces and we devoured the rest!

We walked back down to the street next to the beach and bought souvenirs: chocolate covered macadamia nuts, Christmas ornaments, and a lei for Ruth.

We stayed on the beach long enough to watch the sunset. It was lovely and relaxing.

Time to pack and get things ready to fly out tomorrow... we have to head to the airport no later than 10:00am. And I like to get things packed the night before, if possible, so after Ruth is in bed, we'll work on that.

Vacations always come to an end, Clara... sometimes it's just sooner than we want!

Love,
Mama

28 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today we went to the zoo! But of course, we started with some coffee from Starbucks. This has been our little tradition - get coffee, then carry on with the day.

The zoo was fun: we especially liked the giraffes (mama's favorite - I saw them wild in Africa one time!), the African wild dogs, and the elephants. Today was Earth Day, so there were some vendors set up on the zoo lawn, so we walked through and looked at their wares, too. It was such a beautiful day, and we were worried about sun burns, so we went home to rest and eat lunch right after we were done walking through.

After lunch and a nap, we headed to the beach. And this time, we played in the water! It was fairly warm, which was nice, and we just walked out some, let Ruth "swim" between us, looked at shells, and relaxed on the sand. When we bought our beach towels, daddy picked out four - one for each of us... including YOU! I might put everyone's name on their towel.

We took a long way back to our apartment, just window shopping, and I'm so glad we did because we stumbled upon a Farmer's Market! We all had a hankering for some cookies, but instead, we found some malasadas (a donut type thing filled with fruit) and we munched on those. We decided to go get cleaned up and walk back for dinner.

So we did! We ended up eating lots of fruit, meat on a stick, spring rolls, and some Mexican-style jambalaya stuff. It was all so good. Because the Famer's Market was right in the middle of a shopping district, we looked around there, too.

I think what we love most about this vacation is that it's just the three (four!) of us to consider. We can do what we think will be fun without worrying about someone else's agenda. In fact, we've enjoyed it so much that daddy and I talked about planning a vacation like this every year. Sometimes it may be to places like Hawaii or Disneyland, sometimes it may be to places like Ireland or Iceland... but sometimes, it may be juts down to Seward or Juneau. The point is, we want you girls to grow up with memories of our family vacations, doing fun low-key things like this: daddy and I each pushing our little girls in umbrella strollers as we navigate a new town together.

Adventure is out there, little Clara. Let's go find it!

Love,
Mama

28 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Good morning, Hawaii! Today was rainy, so we headed up to the North Shore. We drove all along the east coast of the island (after getting coffee, of course!) before stopping at Turtle Bay. We walked out to the public beach where we had it all to ourselves most of the time!

The waves were HUGE!! There was lots of exposed coral and sand, so we played on it and in the waves, being sure to dodge the really big ones... well, all but one! It came crashing up out of nowhere and we all got soaked! On our way back to the rental car (a Jeep Renegade), it started pouring down rain, too! Yikes! We bought a few souvenirs (a book for Ruth and playing cards for daddy), made a picnic lunch in the car, and drove to Haleiwa (drying out the whole way).

In Halewai, we parked and walked down their main street, looking in all the fun shops. Daddy and I love to do that - just window shop in small towns, stopping for coffee and enjoying. So that's what we did! We found a coffee place and daddy got coffee, but I got a smoothie. Ruth ended up drinking 1/3 of it because she liked it so much, too! Before we got back to the car, it started pouring down rain there, too! So of course, we got soaked again. Even though it was raining, it was still so nice and warm outside. I like that. On our way out of town, we stopped at a ukulele store. We didn't get one, but I think daddy would have if we could! I pray you grow up loving music as much as he does. I bought a bracelet in this town, and we got two little bags of coffee for Papa Larry and Aunt Mandy.

Next stop: Green World Farms, a coffee plantation in the middle of the island! We got free samples, bought a bag to take home, and AGAIN, got soaked when it was time to leave! We couldn't believe how rainy it was on the island today!

I can't wait until you and Ruth are old enough to play together in the backseat - on our drive back to Honolulu, she was being so fun and silly and it will be a huge blessing to look back and see TWO little girls sitting and laughing (and sometimes screaming) together.

We parked back at our apartment and walked to dinner at the South Shore Grill... and it is my FAVORITE meal the whole trip so far! I had a shrimp burrito (sooo good) and I think you really liked it, too, because you were so wiggly tonight! As daddy and I laid in bed, you were just kicking and dancing all over the place!

On the agenda for tomorrow: the zoo!

Love,
Mama

28 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

After travelling all afternoon yesterday, driving a rental car in a new town, and settling into our Air BNB apartment, we are in HAWAII!! Daddy, Ruthie, and I are here until April 24th with no big plans except to relax.

So today we grocery shopped, got caught in the rain, drank coffee from Starbucks, went to the beach, and ate at Rainbow Drive In for dinner. Their burgers were delicious! Even Ruthie ate almost her whole meal.

We are already having the best time and Daddy and I are already dreaming about a trip back here in January 2019 for our 5-year anniversary. Of course, we want to come again with all of you children, too. :)

Here's to hoping the next few days are relaxing and fun!

Love,
Mama

28 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

We heard your little heartbeat today! It sounded strong and healthy at about 132 BPM. You have been active and seem to be growing well. While I wish we had more ultrasounds during this pregnancy, it will be SO fun to see your little face when you are born.

I made the rest of my prenatal appointments today, too! For the next month or so, I'll go to the doctor every other week... then, starting in mid-June, I'll go every week. I can't believe we're this close to the end! It's almost time to meet you, Clara Boo!

We love you. Keep growing and getting strong.

Love,
Mama

28 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

7 months! You are the size of that head of cauliflower we usually have in our fridge: about 16 inches long and 2.5 lbs. You should be getting into the proper position for childbirth (and in fact, Ms. Ashley at my work today told me that it looked like you were lower than usual!). You may be dreaming during your naptimes (which don't seem to be very often... you sure kicked and squirmed a LOT today!). You can blink, stick your tongue out, hiccup, and improved sucking and breathing. Grow, Clara, grow!!

We made some more progress in your room this weekend: we hung curtains, discussed rugs, bought hangers for your clothes, and made sure the hanging shelf in your closet was secure. Memaw and Papa may move in with us soon, so we can't really do much else in there yet... there needs to be room for their air mattress on the floor. But we are getting closer and - with just 2 and a half months left to go - it's a good thing we are!

This week, we head to Hawaii for a few days of vacation. Can't wait to go and relax on the beach, hike a little bit, explore the zoo, and more. We are considering a trip to Oregon this fall, when you can come with us, then we'll all head to Ghana, Africa in December.

Daddy and I went on a date tonight - we had dinner at Red Robin, walked around Sportsman's Warehouse, then got milkshakes and drove home. Memaw and Papa babysat, but Ruthie still wasn't asleep in her bed (that stinker!) so we tried (for an hour!) to get her to sleep. No luck. Finally, we let her back out of bed and she ran around playing for about an hour. We re-did her bedtime routine, settled her in bed, and she was out like a light. Then Daddy and I just worked on packing for our trip, then went to bed.

We love you, littlest one. Can't wait to meet you on the outside in just 12 more weeks (ish).

Love,
Mama

27 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

SUNDAY! Resurrection Day!! Easter!!!

Christ is risen from the grave, trampling over death by death. Come awake! Come awake! Come and rise up from the grave! Oh, death, where is your sting?! Oh, hell, where is your victory?! (Matt Maher, Christ is Risen)

He's alive! He's alive!

Satan was not the winner.

Christ, the slain but resurrected One, is the Savior of the World. He is and was and is to come.

Hallelujah.

Love,
Mama

PS - Today consisted of:

• Easter baskets
• Church
• Potluck lunch
• Easter egg hunt
• Naps and long talks
• Our first fire pit dinner of the year

We. Are. Blessed.

27 Weeks, 4 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today is Good Friday. Today we remember the Lord's sacrifice on the cross, His suffering and death so that our sins may be forgiven. We attended a Good Friday service at FLBC tonight, where we heard Jesus's seven last phrases from the cross, took communion, and engaged in worship.

On the drive home, daddy and I started talking about the chaos that would have ensued when He died:

• Total darkness for three hours in the middle of the day
• An earthquake in Jerusalem

But most surprising...

• The curtain in the temple tearing in two.

It was Passover, which means there were more people than normal in Jerusalem. Animals would have been wandering all over the temple, waiting for their turn as the sacrifice. Priests would have been "all hands on deck" managing the crowds, sacrificing animals, ensuring things were done correctly and honoring to the Lord...

When all of a sudden, they start to hear a "riiiiiip" and the curtain (six feet wide of material!) begins to come apart and fall to the ground. Riiiiiip. The Holiest of Holies is exposed for everyone to see. Riiiiiip. Priests, men, women... anyone around had a visual into the room reserved for once-a-year entrance to the High Priest only. Riiiiiip. Everything had changed. Riiiiiip.

Christ came to us, born as a baby, so that we could be reconciled to the Most High God. So that we could access that Holiest of Holies where entrance had previously been denied to all. And on Good Friday, that purpose was fulfilled.

Christ was dead. The curtain was torn. And Sunday was coming.

Love,

Mama

27 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Family Date Night tonight! We packed a picnic dinner (chicken salad sandwiches, string cheese, chips, and fruit), drove to Wonderland Park, and spent a sunshine-filled spring evening playing with bubbles, sitting in the grass, swinging, and walking around the park.

Being outside in the sunshine was so nice. I'm ready for spring to be in full-bloom and it almost feels like we're there! It was a nice lead-in to our Hawaiian vacation next week, too: a practice evening, if you will, of soaking up the sun!

Soon we'll have you here on the outside, running around and playing with Ruth, cuddling with me and daddy, and learning all about this beautiful world we have.

But don't come yet! You need to keep growing strong and healthy (and mama's knees need to heal so I can get on the ground and change your diapers!). Keep it up, little one.

XOXO,
Mama

27 Weeks, 1 Day

Dear Baby Batts #2,

While daddy was at class tonight, after Ruthie was in bed, I watched a documentary about how babies develop while in utero... and when it finally got to about 27 weeks, I was so so excited. It's like I was seeing how you are growing RIGHT NOW!

When daddy got home, I talked his ear off about the development you're experiencing, what your little body has already gone through, and what's coming up for you. And to say that we are both looking forward to your arrival is an understatement!

I also called you "Clara Boo" the other day, then laughed because it made me think of Caribou. Who knows?! Maybe that will be your little nickname. We call Ruth "Ruthie Bug" sometimes and you may be our little "Clara Boo."

Love,
Mama

27 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

You are okay. I am okay. Praise the Lord.

I was walking down the hallway at work today, thinking about your room and looking around when, all of a sudden, I tripped and fell (hard!) on my hands and knees. I got terrible rug burns on my knees and an ankle and was pretty shaken up. I went back to my desk, told daddy what happened, then ate some lunch to see if I could feel you moving around. I could, but just a little. I called my mid wife's clinic and they told me to go to the OB at the hospital. I called daddy and he decided to drop Ruth off at Memaw and Papa's house then meet me there.

We arrived at the OB, they checked us in, and guess who was there?! Ms. Donna, our midwife! The Lord is so good, even in that.

For the next 4 and a half hours, they monitored your heartbeat and checked me for contractions. To be honest, they had a hard time finding your heartbeat because you kept kicking and pushing the monitor away! The nurse would get it positioned just so and you would kick it and move... over and over and over again! I was laughing - I knew then that you were okay.

Donna ordered lunch and dinner for me, so we ate some food while we waited. I napped a little. Daddy and I chatted. And finally, about 6 hours after I fell, we were given the all-clear: Your heartrate was steady in the 140s, I wasn't having any contractions, and things looked fine (other than my banged-up legs).

So, at 27 weeks now, you are continuing to grow (about 2 lbs and over 14 inches long), your eyes are opening, you're developing some muscle tone from all the workouts you're doing in my tummy, you can hear me when I talk now, even though it is a little muffled for you, and you could even get hiccups now!

We are now entering the third trimester and on the home stretch. Hooray! Just about 13 more weeks (eek!!) and you'll be here.

All our love,
Mama

26 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Well, today did NOT go as planned! That seems to be par for the course lately around our house!

We got up, got ready for church, and even left on time... but when we were about 5 minutes away from FLBC, Ruth got sick in the back seat and threw up five or six times! We turned right around, went home, got her cleaned up, then we all rested a little bit. I think the weekend was just too much for your big sister!

We spent the day at home, cleaning things up, playing outside in the yard, working in your bedroom and the garage, and just relaxing. Daddy went to a meeting at FLBC and brought home pizza for dinner. It turned out to be exactly what we needed, apart from Ruth getting sick. We were able to just reconnect as a family.

Clara, daddy and I are realizing more and more how much we need that simple family time: playing outside in the spring sunshine, watching movies in the living room, eating pizza... we need that so that our family unit is strong and healthy.

We can't wait to have you on the outside to enjoy these days with us!

Love,
Mama

26 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Good gravy, we are exhausted! It was a long, tiring, and fun weekend at the Celebration! My portions went well, we went shopping (hello, new dress, 2 shirts, and shorts!), ate dinner at Olive Garden, attended breakout sessions, and tried to sleep... some times the sleep went well and sometimes it didn't!

Now, it's good to be home with daddy, relaxing and getting ready for the week. Tonight, we went to Value Village and found daddy some new pants. Tomorrow is church and then the week starts all over again.

We love you, little Clara!

Love,
Mama

26 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I took today off work to hang out with your handsome daddy and sweet big sister. This afternoon, Ruth and I are going into Anchorage for the Women on Mission Celebration and daddy is stay home for some much-needed alone time.

I'm looking forward to being with some of my WMU friends, leading a breakout session, presiding over a meeting, and generally spending a good time with Memaw and Gma Linda! I think you and I are sleeping on the pull-out bed in the hotel room... so hopefully it's comfy for us!

Love you lots,
Mama

26 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

26 weeks! We are almost in the third trimester. You now weigh about 2 pounds and are 14 inches long. Your fingernails have grown and your eyes are beginning to open. You can hear and respond to noises, tastes in the amniotic fluid, and light shining on my tummy. Speaking of tastes, you were active after our Mexican dinner last night! You must like chips and salsa like we do.

It took me a while to fall asleep last night. I had a lot on my mind that was making me feel all worked up. Finally, I relaxed enough to drift off, but I didn’t really feel rested today.

Tonight, I think daddy and I are going to work on the garage some more. This will be a busy week: he has class tomorrow, a missions committee meeting on Wednesday, I have a School Board meeting to watch on Wednesday, then Thursday through Friday I will be in Anchorage at a missions conference. The Lord is our strength.

Keep growing, little Clara – we will see you in about 14 weeks!

Love,

Mama

25 Weeks, 6 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

I’m officially in the Nesting phase! We spent a large chunk of the afternoon working on organizing the garage – a much-needed activity, since we have recently inherited so many treasures from well-meaning people. Unfortunately, many of the “treasures” are things we don’t really need (or, to be honest, want).

So we made piles, we threw away, we packed for thrift stores, we organized, we purged, and we started all over again! Daddy and Ruth are taking a load to the dump and another load to the thrift store. Then this week, we will work on organizing what remains into its proper place inside the house.

It’s amazing that in about 3 ½ months, you’ll be in our little family, too (on the outside). We have lots of work to do before then, but I’m so excited!

Love,

Mama

25 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

What a day! Things did NOT go as planned and, unfortunately, we were all a little snippy with one another. I hate days like that! However, after a much-needed family dessert date to DQ, we ate dinner at home and nestled in for a relaxing night.

Life is full of ups and downs… but what matters most is living with forgiveness, intentionality, and love.

Love,

Mama

25 Weeks, 3 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Last night, daddy and I laid in bed and just LAUGHED so hard together. I felt you wiggling around as we did and I hope you could hear the love and joy and friendship in our marriage. I want our home to be a safe and secure place for you, Clara, and daddy and I will do anything to make it so!

Daddy and I have started having regular “Couch Time” when I get home from work. I give Ruth snuggles, put my stuff away, grab some tea, and we sit and chat. It is important to use that our children know we are investing in one another (and not just when you go to bed!). When you are grown up and move out, daddy and I will be left at home together. And we don’t want to have to start from scratch in our relationship at that point.

So we invest now, knowing that this investment will yield BIG results in the future.

Love,

Mama

25 Weeks, 2 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Daddy had his EMT 2 class today; Ruthie went to bed at about 7:00pm; and you and I were on our own for the rest of the evening! We relaxed (and played Candy Crush) a little bit, then got to work. We cleaned the kitchen, did some laundry, organized some items to take to the thrift store, cleaned out some more of what will be your closet, prepped things for my work tomorrow, and I worked on Daddy’s polar fleece vest (that I started making him at Christmas!) while watching a British house-hunting show. We had a very productive evening, Clara!

My nesting instincts must be kicking in because I just want to do ALL THE THINGS.

But lying in bed, feeling you kick and wiggle inside of me, was the best part. You are a real little girl – our real little girl! And soon, you’ll be on the outside, developing your own personality, your own interests, your own favorites. You’ll be launched into the big world, but know that daddy and I will always be there to love, guide, and encourage you.

You are our daughter. Always.

Love,

Mam

25 Weeks

Dear Baby Batts #2,

Today you are 25 weeks old! At about 13 inches long and 1.5 pounds, you are large and in charge! You are growing more hair (and if we had a window in my tummy, we may be able to discern a hair color!) and gaining some body fat. Your organs are still maturing. If you were born this week, there’s a really good chance that your body would be strong enough and, after a long time in the NICU, we would take you home healthy!

Of course, we want you to keep hanging out in my tummy as long as you should.

My next appointment is April 18^th and after that, I think we’ll see Donna every two weeks for a couple months… and one once a week (at least!) until you come. Can’t believe we’re already at that point. You are growing so fast!

Keep it up, Clara Mae.

Today was crazy – I got to work and was about to go to a meeting when daddy texted me and said I had his truck keys… and I did! So I had to race home and deliver his keys so that he could go to his EMT ride along. I took Ruth out to Ms. Loraine’s house to play for the day. Then I stopped to see Gma Linda on my way back to work. Tonight, Memaw and Papa (who are finally home from Israel and Oregon!) are coming over for dinner and we’ll spend some much-needed time with them, too. I know they can’t wait to see how you have grown.

Okay, little girl. We love you to the mooooooon.

Love,

Mama

24 Weeks, 5 Days

Dear Baby Batts #2,

After a MyMission breakfast and craft project at our house, me, daddy, and Ruth went into Anchorage to drop off Memaw and Papa’s car at the airport. Then we went on a family adventure!

We drove down to Girdwood, AK and bought some Nutella Latte’s and a Snickerdoodle the size of my face! It was a beautiful day for a drive (clear, sunny, and a little cold) and the snacks we go were delicious.

Daddy and I have spent a lot of time debating lots of recent situations that have come up:

·       Needing to buy a new vehicle (Maybe a Hyundai Santa Fe?)

·       Daddy working as an EMT

·       Adoption

·       Finances

·       House projects

·       How we’ll handle two kids

·       Etc.

It’s a lot to think about and consider and a little overwhelming at times. We are trying to just trust that the Lord has it all in His control. We KNOW He does… and we are committed to following His leading in all things.

Already, little one, we are praying for a quick and smooth labor and delivery. I want to birth you naturally, just like I did with Ruth. I want the Lord to be glorified in my labor and delivery and I want you be born strong and healthy. Right now, feeling your kicks on the inside, makes me really excited to have you on the outside. We have several months to go (and lots of projects to do before then!) but we are looking forward to you joining our family on the outside. We pray for you daily and can’t wait to see how the Lord works in your life.

Love you much,

Mama